How to be your own Inspiration

Changing your lack mindset to one of having it all and achievement is an amazing journey to be on and create just the right kind of transformation you are seeking. But it’s also scary and uncomfortable.

I have been there.

There were moments in my life where I was going crazy with all the things that were going on in my life. Because every time I believed I turned a corner, there was another boulder in the way that made it hard to get around it, let alone move it.

As a foster kid, there was always the doomsday cloud over my head but I always go back to my declaration as an 8-year old girl that my lif would be different. Which is easier said than done when as a foster kid, the cards are stacked against you, but deep down I believed that my life would be better, someday.

I got married but that only ended up being an unsuccessful marriage. I was insecure and seeking validation and love in the heat of the moment places.

I attempted a few careers, earned a degree in accounting but soon realized that while the money was better and life had improved, I wasn’t aligned with data entry and sitting in a cubicle. But I was stuck even though in the deepest corner of my heart I knew I wanted to help people in a healing kind of way.

I pushed forward, engaging in activities that helped me get through but they didn’t make me dance with joy through the house. Here’s the thing, ALL of that doing was a great experience and kept me pushing forward and my eyes on the target, which in my 20’s I simply just wanted to be a good mom and the ability to provide adequately for my kids.

There were so many messages from external forces in my life however that I failed to see the things I wanted to do so deeply and passionately because being grateful for the little things, well that is THE thing to do!

The challenge was that I lacked role models to guide me and mentor me and I had to become my own person to look up to. When I decided to stop listening to the masses and really go within, that is when my life began transforming. Slowly but surely, I waded through the muddy waters that were my life, clearing blocks and believes that were standing in my way.

When my youngest son was diagnosed with a potentially fatal genetic disorder at the age of 4, and seemingly had his own courageous will to live, my soul was on fire.

I found my inspiration in the chaos.

I went back to college and earned my degree in mental health counseling as my son continue to battle for his life and headed for a self-growth journey that really meant taking apart who I was and what I wanted, layer by layer.

I was finding my voice through affirmations and declarations.

I was finding my passion by learning what lights me up.

I released feelings and behaviors that no longer served me and went from co-dependency to independent.

I engage in activities that make me feel good but am also willing to take a risk in activities I am unsure about, you know like going out by myself to a dance class. Oi!

I used everything as fuel for my inspiration.

I became the parent I wanted to be and take on each moment with an open heart and embrace the challenges, even if they leave me with a little sadness at the end of the day.

I opened myself to other people’s perspectives, acknowledge we don’t all need to be on the same page but can still be friends. You can wear your white socks while I continue to mismatch mine.

I am open to leaning and look for inspiration every where.

I allow myself to connect with people, be in the same space, even if the energy is making me uncomfortable. I know enough about myself that I can be okay in that space – and afterward, I take a shower and light a candle!

I become aware of the things that I don’t want and continue using my voice – even if I am not being understood. At the end of the day, I reflect and acknowledge all the good things in my life.

When you stop looking at your life like doom and gloom, and actually look at how far you’ve come, you can be your own inspiration.