Death of celebrities usually doesn’t face me but there’s always an exception such as the death of Robin Williams. I haven’t watched any of his movies since his death – and similar the death of Chester Bennington impacted me the same. I tend to change the channel or song with Linking Park hits the speakers.
I don’t hide my growing up in foster care and the pain and struggle I experienced that followed me into adulthood – it’s not been easy but a necessary healing journey so I could break some demented cycle.
I think the first time I heard “In the end” it hit me with such clarity that the longer I stayed victim to the stories I told myself, and using the experiences as an excuse, I would never fulfill my dream.
Every single moment and experience are part of my journey. A journey that was hard as fuck and yet perhaps even awe-inspiring. When my son was diagnosed with a rare genetic disorder that has a high fatality – I realized within seconds that life’s too short. Each moment – good or bad – matters.
So many moments I wanted to quit, to walk away from it all knowing that perhaps some dreams and goals don’t really matter in the big scheme of things. There’s this search of a fulfilled life, living with your passion and does it matter in the end if we do any of this when we die and over time are forgotten.
Everything is always so twistable – no matter from what angle you look it will have a different perspective – how do you choose which one matters?
And let’s not forget that we often put in more work into our career or relationships and you have to wonder does it matter giving more of yourself to everything else or is time to take it all back and focus on ourselves?
Do you have a song that you connect to that you would like to write about? Go ahead and email me with your song story and we’ll publish it the next round!
